Am I Truly?

Am I truly in love with You LORD?
Sometimes I do not believe that is true;
for in those moments I am prone to wander,
and pursue my plans without first seeking You.


Am I truly sold out to You alone?
Sometimes my actions shows that am not;
for in those moments I do what I want, 
and pretend that Your commands I forgot.


Am I truly submitted to You LORD?
Sometimes on examination it does seem fake;
for in those moments my will seems better,
and in my hands my every decision I do take.


Am I truly delighted in You alone?
Sometimes I wonder and call it into question;
for in those moments I do look elsewhere,
and pretend that with You I am not in union. 


Am I truly committed to You LORD with my everything?
Sometimes it seems as if it's just words I am mouthing;
for in those moments my heart wants its own way,
and I tell myself that it is much better to not pray.


Am I truly Yours like I think I am?
Sometimes it seems as if I am just a scam;
for in those moments my strength and mind fails,
and the way of my selfishness prevails.


So, please make my love be more than words,
make it a lifestyle that truly lights up this world,
flowing only from knowing and delighting in You,
so that in each moment it proves faithful and true.